Quality Time with your child is essential

I flew back home on Friday night, and last night i left home again for my training.

 I bought Autumn some books when i went home, and she was very happy reading it whenever she was free. She would flip every page and asked me "what is this?" "what about this?" She could read many words by now... from colours, shapes, to animals, etc.... I am very proud of her....

In the morning, i brought her to the outside to play with her toy car.

She enjoyed herself very much and so was i. We sang songs together, and we talked, etc...

  She told me her friends' name in school, she told me about the purple cat, brown bear, white dog, etc.....

 I told Autumn that i had to take a plane to KL again. I had to work. She kept quiet. I told her that i would miss her, and promised to call her everyday. She said "don't want office!!" When i asked if she would miss me, she nodded unwillingly. I know how she felt coz i felt the same..

At least i had spent very quality time with her for the last 2 days, singing, dancing to all her favourite songs in You-tube, etc..... Reading her books, eating, playing, etc. That's why i did not do anything at all for the last 2 days, everything was for her....
Seriously last night, the thought of not boarding the plane and just quit the training came across my mind several times. I was reluctant. Extremely reluctant.
Anyway, the teacher promised and they would send me MMS of her daily activities in school every day.....

Home Sweet Home

Home Sweet Home~
I left home on 1st August for some trainings in KL, I missed home so much especially my hubby and baby. I knew it was gonna end very soon, so i will just have to bare with it a little bit more.

Everyday i would call home and talked to Autumn, but i relised that she did not really wanna talk to me since last few days. Then, she was like totally ignored me. She even said:" I don''t want mommy!" She repeatedly saying that and my heart was like all crumbled together at that second. Every single sentence that came from her mouth shattered my heart into million of pieces.."NO-WAY!" I said to myself. My baby must be really sad and did not understand why did the mommy left her for so many days. Last month, when i went Korea for  days, she was okay. But, definitely not this time, 10 days duration is way too long...

The next day i called to the school and talked to the teacher, she told me that Autumn kept saying i don;t want mommy to them in school. the teachers tried to explain to her. But she said i want daddy, i don't want mommy..... I was even more and more tortured with those words...

That's why i made up my mind, i must go home this Friday night. Even if i have to spend about RM500 for my ticket to fly home for only 2 nights, it is still worth it as long as i can see my baby. I must explain to her that i was working. I must make her understand and then be happy again..

Here i am back at home, i hugged my baby and she was like totally speechless. All the way from the arrival hall till the carpark, she did not say a word except for hugging me tightly with her face on my shoulder. I know she missed me. That's why she was mad at me. Eventhough, she kept silent i knew she understood what i said. So, i kept talking to her explaining everything. I even sang all her favourite songs, and then finally in the car she called me:"mommy", in a very very soft and shy voice.

I passed her the books i bought for her, she was happily holding the books, flipping them, and told the daddy about her new books... Reached home, i finally heard her talking, laughing, and reading her new books.

Must spend every second wisely with her for the next 48 hours before flying off again....

First trip without Autumn

It's 12:10am now, as usual i am supposed to be asleep by this hour.
But, i'm now at Kota Kinabalu International Airport, awating for the boarding time...
It's the flight to Incheon, Seoul. So there are so many Koreans all over the departure area, talking in the foreign language that i don't understand.

There is a mother bringing her baby ina stroller, another young dad carrying the baby as well....
I miss my baby...
She was asleep in the car taking her usual nap in the afternoon when i went to the airport.

So i took a shot of her.... Bye Bye.... my baby...

Mommy will buys you lots and lots of nice shoes, clothes, dresses, skirts, blouses, jackets, accessories, etc...

This is one of the homework i've done, measure her little shoes with my palm...

This is the first time im flying off without bringing Autumn along. So, before i left, i had done all my homework, prepared everything for her to bring to school, from clothings, to milk powder, to diapers, etc...
and Daddy is very weel-trained, should be no problem in putting her to sleep at night...
But.....still i cannot prepare my heart or mind, i am surely gonna miss her sooooo much....

Are you ready to be a parent???

"I hate it when i think i can help but i cannot!!!
"Woke up in the middle of the night and i have this feeling when i saw someone's posts in Facebook. Then i thought, i actually wanted to help but i could not do anything. Well, or maybe it was me who thought i wanted to help but others do not want to be helped?
"Help those who want to be helped" i always recall this sentence once in a while. Maybe i am positive thinking, maybe i always know how to comfort myself? No, i remember i told my cousin who loves reading a lot that she should be reading more of those self-improvement books instead of those famous novel. It could make u think narrowly, and unable to break through the bottle-neck. One of the example is Dale Caniergy's books>> How to win friends and influence people? or How to enjoy life, etc... it really helps..

Whenever there is a problem, we must know how to source the root. Why did this happen? Try thinking it harder about what you think is just gonna send you to DEATH!!! You should stand outside of your mind and then think from the several other point of views. This will definitely make you understand the whole situation and realise what have you done wrongly, or what made you misunderstood them!!??
Especially when i hear how some children or adults complain and hate their parents, i know they must have been some miscommunication.
I am aware about this because i am a mother now. I am not that kind of parent who would just give birth and do not care what happen to the kids! I must make sure that i have my foundation, my career, my own house, and most importantly my time and my "ever-ready mentality" for my baby. I do not want to be selfish like some people who cares so much about making money and have NO TIME for their children, children who cannot get parental love will act very weirdly, and it will affect their own mindset and how they treat their own children.
Talking about TIME, you must allocate quality time with the children.. This cannot be visualized when there is even problem which supporting them!! $$$ might not be everything but in this realistic world>> No Money-No Talk!! So, to those selfish parents out there, money cannot buy back the love for your children... Spend more time with your children, try to talk to them, understand them, love them and make them happy!!
Think or recall>>"Why did you give birth to them???"
But if there are people who said, "it was an accident!!" I would say, then you are not ready! If you're not ready, then why so selfish?? U should not let her or him come to this world! Hey Parents out there!!! Be responsible! it is not a matter of to give birth or not! It is not a matter of can we afford to grow him up or not! It is a matter "Getting ready to be a parent!!"
When you are not ready.. it is unfair to the children!! "Why did you make this decision for us?? " children would say, " I don't want to come to this world i i have a choice!!!"
Please.... do not be selfish....

There are no problems which cannot be solved on earth!!
Only that person who thinks that the problem existed do not understand the whole picture!!
As parents we must think  rationally and love your children!!
Now you cannot said you are not ready, you must try show your love to your children....